For all those who write my pissed off post yesterday, thanks for the concern… I am all better… just needed to vent out my frustration… I am all better now… coz it’s Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have recently come to a conclusion on how my brain works…

Monday – blues (brains in between LaLa Land [90%] and reality [10%])

Tuesday – blues and reality (brains in between LaLa Land [10%] and reality [90%])

Wednesday (midweek) – reality 100%

Thursday – brains in between LaLa Land [30%] and reality [70%]

Friday – brains in LaLa Land [100%]

Saturday & Sunday – mental switch off

So that means I technically work once a week… hahahahahaha…

Anyhoo, the year has gone by and we are in the second last month of 2008… the building I work in plays the same old carols over and over again which irritates the crap outta me… you can’t seem to escape from it… it is even heard in the toilet… which brings me to another point… how difficult is it for you women to sit and pee into the bowl… you do not have things to handle and yet you can’t aim… God knows all hell will break loose if you were given an apparatus to pee with…

No!!!! I am not talking about the toilet in my building… I am talking about the toilets in the zoo… I do realize the zoo is a dirty and smelly place but that doesn’t mean you should stink the toilet up as well... how different can you be from the animals?

I was there last weekend and boy was it smelly… the 4 legged animals I can understand but how can I justify the doings of the 2 legged animals… a simple gesture of flushing seemed to be difficult for their delicate hands… jeez…

I do wanna blog about that day and attached some pictures but certain someone has yet to send me the pictures… I wonder who???? *twirls hair*

Just wanna say the zoo and the night safari were really enjoyable but tiring… amusing in some instances… Guna knows why….

Okok… am gonna stop boring my readers…

Have a good weekend…

Toodles.....

ps. total random blogging…

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 6:34 AM

I am sometimes amazed by the audacity of some people… they claim to be something else but turn out to be something else… people who know me well enough are there to see what I have been through and what runs through my mind when I am faced with a similar situation… others just think that I have not learnt my lesson… either way, it doesn’t affect me in any way…

I am a strong woman who knows what I am doing and is answerable to myself and God…

So… to all those self – righteous pompous arses who snide what I do, I would like to tell them to shove their high and upright noses up where the sun doesn’t shine cause I don’t really give a rat’s ass of what you think is right and wrong…

Just the other day, I was having a discussion with my friend about the phrase “birds of a feather flock together”… Personally, in general, I think it’s a load of hog wash… before anyone says anything, I would like, for the record, to state “THIS IS MY BLOG AND I WILL OR DO ANYTHING THAT DAMN WELL PLEASES ME”…

So we were saying, going through my life’s experiences, I have changed from a sweet, demure, walk-all-over-me girl to step-on-me-and-you-will-die type… I know such a drastic change isn’t really good for a woman but circumstances have made me this way… I digress…

Coming back to people who think alike and them sticking together… I have gone through several groups and I have noticed that not one of them are close to be alike… a perfect example would be my ex – classmates from UNISA… we were 6 different people from 6 different walks of life and had 6 different personalities… we stuck together and became a “groupie” … we were never alike even after the end of the course… but yet till today we are always in touch via msn, facebook or blogs… so how does the phrase “birds of a feather flock together” come in place in this scenario… I have seen loads of people in my life… from gangsters to perpetual cheaters… I have seen their “groupies” and they are all as sick as they are…

HOWEVER, I know of some people who are in that group but are not like them… so how does the phrase “birds of a feather flock together” come in place… it’s very easy to judge someone but have you ever noticed anyone judging you???? To comment “After all that you have been through, you are still sticking to shit” is majorly easy but have u stopped to take a look at yourself… are you really doing fine and dandy *using nice words*… have u stopped and ask me why am I like this??? No!!!! Since you have not, then I would suggest you stuff your comments somewhere else…

I believe everyone is nice… I allow people to walk over me to a certain extent… push my button and there is hell to pay… so don’t go round assuming that I am stupid… if I were really stupid, I would still be in the shit – hole… I’m not right??? So don’t judge me… I cannot stand people who come round judging my life as though this were some kinda sick competition…

the bottom line is that I have been leading my life for the past 26 year of my life on my own and yes I have had my fair share of falls but that doesn’t mean I have not learnt my lesson… I know what I am doing and am not a 5-year-old kid… I am going to hit my 30s’ for crying out loud… so quit trying to baby me… I have always been stubborn… and I have always been the type where the more someone tells me not to do something without a valid reason, I would do it just to spite you… I have been living my life very well, thank you very much…

So why don’t you gather your stuff and vamoose outta my life ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps. super random blogging…

pss. am majorly pissed…

psss. damn!!!!! Am still @#$%^*&*&_)*^$^##_)_))$#@#^* pissed…..

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 10:39 AM

Hello then…

I am back again with another list of the requirements I would like my prospective life partner to meet… I am a 26 year old girl who has not been in a relationship for a long time… I would suggest all prospective mates to view this list and MEMORIZE it…

1. Thou shall not control me. I am a grown adult and can make my own decisions. DO NOT impose your ideals onto me….

2. Thou shall not nag. If I needed a nagger, I would have stayed with my mom. She does an excellent job. (FYI: harping on a certain issue too many times is nagging.)

3. Thou shall not force me to what they would like me to do. I would you rather let me decide what I wanna do. Thank you very much.

4. Thou shall talk and let me talk!!!!

5. Thou shall not stifle me. I need my space to breathe. Just because I am in a relationship, that doesn’t mean my social life expires.

6. Thou shall not talk down to me. (brings back to rule no 1: I am so small kid!!!)

7. Thou shall not “baby” me. (believe or not; there is a difference between “baby-ing” and pampering)

8. Thou shall not repeat a word too many times… i.e. okokok… (those who are guilty, do cringe in shame)

9. Thou shall not deny me a good argument… I am no bimbo…

10. Thou shall read this and memorize it… I do not wanna have to repeat myself…

It’s only 4 p.m. I am super bored….

Updates on the job hunting: Still nothing… let’s see in time to come… I so need to move out of this place… coming to work is kinda dreadful… don’t get me wrong… working in the travel industry is fun but working for family is stupidly impossible, especially when the said family member behaves like a child… am training the new gal who knows nuts and has super bad breath….

Still got 2 hours to go… I have been on facebook way too often… playing with my pet and random word games… hahahahaha…

Okok me gtg

Wanna race my pet…

Ciao

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 11:11 AM

Hello,
I have disappeared for a long time.... have been very busy with work and exams... got a few updates before I start ranting and raving....
1. I have been really sick and am still very sick....
2. I have passed my guiding exams and am now the official tourist guide of Singapore....
3. I am still looking for a job....
Anyhoo, there was a case of a girl committing suicide near my place.... It's really sad and I feel for the family... but I think the girl did a stupid thing... By the looks of her friends and boyfriend, she must be in her 20s'... I don't know why she did such a thing...
Common reasons would be for committing suicide would be:
1. Boyfriend/husband problem
2. Money problem
3. Work problem
4. Family problem
Personally, I feel that if one should commit suicide based on the above mentioned reasons, then they must have been living a worthless life...
I have limited amount of friends and these friends have known what I have gone through... but somehow the thought of suicide has never came across in my mind... no matter how shitty things can be...
I think that God has put us here (Earth) for a reason... and we meet people for a reason... some change our lives drastically and some have little impact in our life, no matter who or what walks in our lives, we should be able to face the good times and bad times...
Who are we to end our lives when we never created ourselves... These people who commit suicide, I wonder if they have thought what would happen to their family members when they are gone... I think they are doing the most selfish thing...
My friends have committed suicide and I have seen the way their families cry over their bodies regretting why they have said or done the things they shouldn't have in the first place...
Parents are the ones who bring us into their lives... they mould us into the person they want us to be... in some instances, we turn out otherwise and yet they love us unconditionally... Yes, there are times when they say or do things that hurt us, but have we stopped to think how much hurt we are causing them when we don't turn out to be the way they have dreamed us to be? I know we have never asked to be born but our parents love us unconditionally so why can't we love them the same?
Friends are our support networks after our parents... You don't have the power to choose your parents but you have the power to choose your friends... Your friends should help you and not bring you down in life...
If you have problems, you should confide in friends who should in return give you good advice and not crappy advice...
For instance, if you have family problems, your friend should advise you to talk to your family members and not run away from home...
I have a small group of friends whom I trust and share my problems with...
Boyfriend/husband, they are supposedly our life partners and best friends... but somehow we choose the wrong people to be with... it hurts when the person whom you think/thought is going to be out life partner disappoints you... but that doesn't give you the reason to commit suicide....
We, as women, got to show men that we are their equivalent and not beneath them...
Work and money problems come hand in hand... the magic rule applies "DON'T
SPEND MORE THAN YOU EARN!!!!!!!!"
Then you won't have problems
I do feel for the girl that committed suicide but I still think that there could have been many other ways to solve your problems...
For all those out there reading this and are contemplating to do this cowardice act, do think about the consequences....
I am sure that you don't wanna be scrapped off the pavement with your hands handcuffed????
Do try and speak to friends or call in help lines to talk to random strangers...
Sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger and not worry about being judged.... trust me...
Alternatively, you can talk to me.... I am the in-your-face crude counselor that would help you see it through.... hahahaha....
Ciao

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 2:45 PM

There are some things in life that irks me the most… Since Diwali is coming and I want to do a list of things that people do it irritate the life out of me…

THE HATE LIST

1. I hate it when someone vents their anger on me. If I am asking you a question and for some weird reason, you are in the blackest clouds, IGNORE me!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don’t give me sarcastic answers, especially early in the morning.

2. I hate it when someone asks me to give up my dogs. I take care of their expenses and needs, not anyone else. So shove your comments up where the sun doesn’t shine.

3. I hate it when I have to report to someone my every activity. I don’t report to anyone. When I say I am out, don’t ask me the 5Ws’ and 1H. I tell you I am out and who I am with and what time I would be back. No further questions are required after the sentence, “I am out with ABC at XX place and would be at XX time.”

4. I hate it when people don’t LISTEN and interrupt me. If you do and misinterpret what I have said, then too bad! Shit happens!!!!!

5. I hate it when I am forced to listen to even though I have just said, “I am angry and I don’t wanna listen.”

6. I hate it when people try to take control of my life. It’s my life and I know how to run it. I was running it well till you showed up so what’s the problem????

7. I hate it when I am looked upon as a 6 year old child, who can’t decide which candy she wants. I am 26-fucking-years old. I will damn well do want I want and whenever I want. If you have a problem, TOO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!

8. I hate it when people read my random notes and think it’s all about them and insist it’s all about them. HELLO!!!!! My world doesn’t revolve around you. Just because I blog about something which you think is about doesn’t mean it has to be around you. Most of the stories are fictional unless stated otherwise.

9. I hate it when I am given credit for no apparent reason. If you have screwed up big time, giving me credit would not and cannot redeem your wrong-doing. If you fucked up big time; nothing you say or do can redeem it. So, no point putting me on a pedestal.

10. Don’t give me lame excuses for you insecurity. GET HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so much better after composing the list….

To all my Indian readers,

HAPPY DIWALI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wishing You Peace, Prosperity and Happiness...

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 9:37 AM

Hello people,

It’s a beautiful Thursday!!!!! It is officially the 4^th week since I have been going to the temple doing my 108 rounds. *yays*

I’m still looking for a job… not really a good time to be out looking for a job… damn the economic downturn… it’s so damn difficult to get a job… guess my nightmare of becoming a domestic engineer a.k.a housewife-cum-breeding machine is gonna come true….aaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!

Diwali’s round the corner… it’s really scary the way the year’s just zooming by… so many things are happening so fast… this year’s coming to an end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So many things to so, so many things to buy… don’t know where to start first… I’m so going to damn expo, no matter how sticky and smelly it will be!!!! Need to buy cookies and deco… gonna rush it all on the last day… might be meeting Guna and her hubby… I will be there with Mohan… emotionally blackmailed him to follow me…. *evil laughter*

Last night, I watched “Nights in Rothanthe”. Richard Gere and Diane Lane were so good… the on-screen chemistry was superb… I don’t care what others say… Richard Gere is hot!!!!!! He can rock my boat any day… I CRIED during the movie… *don’t die of shock!*

The whirlwind romance, the storm and the simple pleasure of having someone hold you…. *sigh*

All chicas should catch this movie…. Do watch it with your loved ones but don’t come out yelling, “Why can’t you be like him ah?”

It’s irritating… If everyone ends up like Richard Gere, the world would be flat!!!!

I love watching going to the theatres to watch movies. The smell of popcorn and the uber cold halls; it’s something that cannot be recreated. However, it irks me when some a**holes decided otherwise. Thus I have come up with a list.

10 things thou shan’t do in the theatre.

1. Thou shall not walk in the theatre when the movie has already started. It’s rude!!!!!!!!

2. Thou shall bring thy own jacket. If you forgot and can’t share with partner/friend, too bad. DIE in the freezing cold then.

3. Thou shall shut the F*ck up when the movie is going on. If you friend/partner has missed the previous scene, too bad shit happens! Move on!!! I didn’t pay 10 buck to hear you yak!

4. Thou shall not make out if thou aren’t in a dark corner. I wanna watch a movie not some damn “erotica gone wrong”

5. Thou shall not talk on the phone while the movie is going on. You are not stupid neither are you illiterate. How do you f*cking ignore all notices to silent your phone?

6. Once you hear the slurping sound in your cup, it means your drink has finished. So get the f*ck up and buy another drink or get it from your partner/friend. If you came alone, too bad shit happens. Next time, stop being a bloody miser and get yourself a large drink. If you have finished the large drink during the movie, please get yourself check, you camel.

7. When thou decides to have popcorn has a snack, thou shall chew QUIETLY. No one needs to know you are having popcorn.

8. When the girl turns you hand around her once, DON’T try again. It irritates people who are sitting behind and they think you are big time loser.

9. Thou shall not get up till the lights are on. If you do and trip, it’s your fault so stop whining about it.

10. Last and not least, when leaving the cinema thou shall watch out for the person behind and not slam the door.

I know this list make me sound mean but I am a very nice person. Just don’t try to irritate me.

Tata for now!!!! Xoxoxo!!!

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 12:09 PM

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s been a long time since I have blogged…

Just some random updates:

1. I AM LOOKING FOR A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THE TEMPLE EVERY WEEK!!!!!

3. I HAVE STOPPED SMOKING YET AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. I HAVE STARTED GOING TO THE GYM!!!!!!!!!!!!

5. I AM GONNA START TO SWIM!!!!!!!

Yes yes… I have decided to quit working where I am working now and to look for a new job that pays well and that has got nothing to do with FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!! After working so long, I have come to the conclusion that when one works with family, conflict arises thus shit hits the fan… So DUCK!!!!!

Anyhoo, I’ve been sending resumes and all… I know it’s a bad time looking for a job especially when the economy is so bad… but hey you never know…

YES!!!!!!!!!!! I have been going to temple weekly… doing 108 rounds every Thursday… got to do it for 9 weeks… its high time I start becoming holy which means I got to give my beef… well… I have done well for 2 weeks got another 7 more to go… I SHALL DO IT AND FINISH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have stopped smoking yet again and hope that I would pick it up… too expensive lah… decided to spend the cash on gym-ing as well as swimming… hopefully, I won’t pick the habit up again but then again it’s hard to say… we shall see…

I need to lose 25kg by Mar 2009!!!!!!!!! So I need to gym and swim more often… as it is, I am doing it once a week… Gym-ing I mean… I have not started swimming yet… must start soon… wanna look fabulous in time for my birthday… went to watch Eagle Eye last week with Guna… she’s great… had so much fun with her… Eagle Eye was superb… kept me at the edge of my seat... thank god there was no mushy romance that would have spoiled the climax of the movie…

I wanna watch the movie again!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyone interested??????

AM so gonna go to Teka Expo on the last day!!!!!! *yay* practically begged Mohan to follow me!!!!! He agreed and told me that he would come if I wear to wear long sleeved loose fitting shirt and jeans… hahahaha… the last time we went together, I slapped an Indian worker coz he squeezed my butt… also managed to convince him to watch the latest Richard Gere movie with me…. Hahahahahahaha….

Anyhoo, I have bought 2 suits during the Geylang Expo… so no more Diwali shopping for me… might buy some cookies and all… we shall how things go…

This year would be Romeo’s 1^st diwali… a pity his mummy is not around… finally found the urn and managed to throw her ashes yesterday…. Big thank you to Mr. Luke who brought me to East Coast and helped me open the urn….gonna miss her… but in the words of Mr. Annamalai, “she is in doggie heaven, playing with her mummy and daddy”.

Thank you to one and all for the encouraging words during the difficult time… it meant a lot to me…

I guess I have pretty much summed up everything, no matter how random they are…

Ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

loveHURTS
SHE was here @ 11:48 AM

when did it start,
when it end????